Lately I have been trying to focus on finding joy in motherhood. I was reading a book called... Contentment in Motherhood (or something like that). I was actually getting ticked reading the book. For example, she talked about her awesome stay-at-home-mom, who did all these amazing things like be the youngest member on the mo-tab choir, a mission-mom at 29, in charge or all these activities all over Ireland, etc. etc. Anyway, as I read I thought, yeah, of course her mom never had issues with being a stay-at-home-mom. She wasn't one! She may not have been paid, but...
Anyway, I was in the middle of all this complaining and discontentment, which was getting me exactly opposite where I wanted. Then it struck me, maybe it was me. Does the word "Stiff-neckedness" come to mind?
So I have done some softening. I started reading the book without criticism... and more importantly, The Good Book. And it's getting TONS better. I am finding contentment. I am really enjoying mothering. I love being home with my kids. And while it is in no way perfect, I'm feeling what I have been praying for.
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